my best friend

my best friend, in my opinion, is the most wonderful person god has ever placed on his green earth. i have no idea what i ever did to deserve a friend like him. he may not be the richest or the most generous person around, he may have his weaknesses which irritate me oh-so-much, he may be an arrogant showoff at times. people may not like him. but in my opinion, he is the smartest and nicest person ever. he is the best friend that anyone can ask for. he accepts me for who i am but forces me to change for the better.

it's really ironic. he's the person who has caused me the most hurts. in this life to date, i probably felt betrayed by him more times than all the rest of my associations put together. but our friendship has progressed so much. and i feel really confused at times. cos when i think back at the times that he hurt me, they hurt so much. i have released them and forgiven him. but the stings are still there.

but lately, he has simply just been wonderful. i would be in the pits of depression and he would pick me up. he's like my guardian angel, making sure i won't drown. i can be at my worst, but he still accepts and loves me. gosh he rocks.

i will always remember, when the both of us were at the beach yesterday. i wanted to go cos i was on the verge of a mental breakdown. he obliged. i know he was tired and i suspected he had other plans. but he went along with me. indulged me. was there for me.

standing on the beach, he made me sing worship songs. i want to sing. mengenal-mu in bahasa and in chinese. here in my life. etc etc. i thought i was sinking into the pits of hell. and he pulled me back up, and realigned me towards god.

yujie. i really don't know what to do without u. not all love needs to be eros to be fulfilling. our phileo love now i think has become agape. we have seen each other's terrible sides. and we still love each other.

my friend, if there's one thing i could give u, it'd be the ability to see yourself the way i see u. then u'd see what a wonderful person u are, how amazing and capable u are. i know that u'll be a very successful person in future. pray that our friendship lasts.

i just hope that he does something nice for me this coming bday. i don't ask for much. just that he keeps his day free and we get to spend time together chilling and hanging out. yups.