a good night out

i had a good night out. but i'm not in the best state of minds right now. ji msged to ask if i wanted to hang out tonight. so i went to meet her, we grabbed a beer, and hung out. we supposed to hang out under the stars (she said it was romantic, not in a bgr kinda way - whatever that meant), but the night was too cold. so we just sat inside cabot.

we did not do anything beyond talk. for about 2 hours. but somehow, i felt something. i felt that i havent connected with a female like that since, well, her. it felt so ridiculous to me because she is leaving on thursday, and she's from korea...which is far far away. and to top it all, she is attached. and hence, i was certain that i would not make any moves. not one. and so i did not. i still maintained my rationale self which knew the difference between right and wrong. phew! but still, i felt something. and i felt that she was dropping some stuff too. it wasnt just me.

now i'm confused. what does this mean for me? i suspect i'm facing a late rebound. which is possible. but this is very late. does this mean i'm ready to start dating again? i suspect not either. i'm not prepared for all that commitment, and maintaining someone. so maybe it means yes...i'm over her! but i thought i moved on long ago. but one things for sure, i've faith in the forest again. full of girls with potential. i think i need to look beyond singapore.

thank god for giving me the wisdom to do the right thing at the right time. aaron chew - the quintessential gentleman. hahahaha!!