finally...he's there at my lowest point. ((:

aaron*c says: (2:00:38 AM)
i actually am quite numb
aaron*c says: (2:00:43 AM)
4th rejection see
aaron*c says: (2:00:45 AM)
4th
aaron*c says: (2:00:57 AM)
what a failure.
aaron*c says: (2:01:16 AM)
2004, 2005, 2006, 2008.
aaron*c says: (2:02:17 AM)
numb on one hand, denial on another. maybe a little disbelief.
elisha | color says: (2:02:54 AM)
sighs...
elisha | color says: (2:03:09 AM)
ohwells, i really still believe and know that u are a great great person
elisha | color says: (2:03:10 AM)
friend
elisha | color says: (2:03:17 AM)
and man :)
aaron*c says: (2:04:47 AM)
really?
aaron*c says: (2:04:57 AM)
because i feel quite rotten right now
elisha | color says: (2:07:49 AM)
really la. all these things doesnt change e fact of a character or a person :)
elisha | color says: (2:07:59 AM)
aaron is still aaron. with or w/o he's still great
elisha | color says: (2:08:01 AM)
i believe
elisha | color says: (2:08:07 AM)
and i'm sure lots of ppl do too
elisha | color says: (2:08:08 AM)
:)
elisha | color says: (2:08:12 AM)
we're all behind u
aaron*c says: (2:08:30 AM)
that is not true.
aaron*c says: (2:08:54 AM)
when it comes down to it, i dont have that many people around.
aaron*c says: (2:09:10 AM)
in the church, well, probably just u. and maybe seb.
aaron*c says: (2:10:22 AM)
yujie...my life is so tragic. it tells a tragic story.
elisha | color says: (2:11:06 AM)
well i believe w400 are behind u too.
elisha | color says: (2:11:08 AM)
yes u are.
elisha | color says: (2:11:15 AM)
c'mon
elisha | color says: (2:11:25 AM)
we all looking up to u now man!
aaron*c says: (2:11:43 AM)
what am i going to do?
aaron*c says: (2:11:49 AM)
what am i going to do?
aaron*c says: (2:11:55 AM)
i really dont know.
aaron*c says: (2:12:01 AM)
i was so bent on leaving.
aaron*c says: (2:12:06 AM)
that i didnt study
aaron*c says: (2:12:15 AM)
and my results are going to be crap.
aaron*c says: (2:12:20 AM)
and maybe i cannot leave.
aaron*c says: (2:12:24 AM)
what am i going to do?
aaron*c says: (2:12:29 AM)
like seriously.
elisha | color says: (2:14:29 AM)
hmm
elisha | color says: (2:14:33 AM)
wad are ur other options?
elisha | color says: (2:14:38 AM)
as in overseas apps
aaron*c says: (2:14:40 AM)
killing myself
elisha | color says: (2:19:05 AM)
oooiiiee
aaron*c says: (2:21:24 AM)
do u know i thought of that?
aaron*c says: (2:21:53 AM)
and the only thing keeping me going was well, me looking forward to going overseas.
elisha | color says: (2:22:40 AM)
haiyooooo
elisha | color says: (2:22:48 AM)
pls dun like that
aaron*c says: (2:24:14 AM)
i dunno.
aaron*c says: (2:24:23 AM)
nothing worth living for.
aaron*c says: (2:24:30 AM)
no progress in life.
aaron*c says: (2:24:41 AM)
i seem to be moving backwards
aaron*c says: (2:24:52 AM)
do u know that i wake up every day feeling like a failure.
aaron*c says: (2:24:57 AM)
i keep everything to myself
aaron*c says: (2:25:02 AM)
but i've been so miserable
aaron*c says: (2:25:06 AM)
every day
elisha | color says: (2:25:20 AM)
haiizzz...
aaron*c says: (3:19:06 AM)
yujie
elisha | color says: (3:19:15 AM)
yes
elisha | color says: (3:19:25 AM)
u got to stop saying sorry to me
elisha | color says: (3:19:27 AM)
heh
elisha | color says: (3:19:43 AM)
belief is spelt
elisha | color says: (3:19:48 AM)
A-A-R-O-N
elisha | color says: (3:20:04 AM)
i have confidence in that belief
elisha | color says: (3:20:06 AM)
:)
aaron*c says: (3:20:45 AM)
haha. i was just about to say sorry. sigh. i know u hate me to "sulk" and whine.
elisha | color says: (3:21:13 AM)
i am faster than u can type
elisha | color says: (3:21:14 AM)
heh
elisha | color says: (3:21:23 AM)
cus i'm word challenged trained now :P
elisha | color says: (3:21:25 AM)
hahahaha
elisha | color says: (3:21:30 AM)
although still lousy la.
aaron*c says: (3:22:00 AM)
i just dont know who else to turn to i guess. i was so scared u'd shout at me but i still called u in the end.
elisha | color says: (3:22:21 AM)
:)
aaron*c says: (3:22:22 AM)
thank you..
elisha | color says: (3:22:22 AM)
it's ok
elisha | color says: (3:22:30 AM)
i wanted to call u anyway. but u were online
elisha | color says: (3:22:34 AM)
so ya.
aaron*c says: (3:22:35 AM)
i owe u a lot a lot.
elisha | color says: (3:22:36 AM)
pls dun be afraid la
elisha | color says: (3:22:40 AM)
i owe u alot too
elisha | color says: (3:23:03 AM)
all these trouble past few mths especially and i really just hope that i cud be more selfless
elisha | color says: (3:23:09 AM)
and help build ur life right and up too
elisha | color says: (3:23:17 AM)
just as how u had done so for mine. :)
elisha | color says: (3:23:21 AM)
and many others too!
elisha | color says: (3:23:23 AM)
;)
elisha | color says: (3:23:25 AM)
you're great
elisha | color says: (3:23:27 AM)
say.
elisha | color says: (3:23:33 AM)
"AARON IS GREAT!"
elisha | color says: (3:23:36 AM)
say it out!
aaron*c says: (3:23:54 AM)
it isnt true.
elisha | color says: (3:24:40 AM)
u must confess it
elisha | color says: (3:24:42 AM)
idioit
elisha | color says: (3:24:49 AM)
u dun speak out, i'll scold u
elisha | color says: (3:24:51 AM)
!!
elisha | color says: (3:24:55 AM)
:@
elisha | color says: (3:25:02 AM)
angry ald.
elisha | color says: (3:25:06 AM)
1,
elisha | color says: (3:25:07 AM)
2,
elisha | color says: (3:25:09 AM)
3,
elisha | color says: (3:25:12 AM)
say............!
aaron*c says: (3:26:13 AM)
okay i did.
elisha | color says: (3:28:29 AM)
ok la
elisha | color says: (3:28:34 AM)
u better catch some rest
elisha | color says: (3:28:36 AM)
i'll help u msg
elisha | color says: (3:28:43 AM)
if u dun wake up so early
aaron*c says: (3:32:53 AM)
when i get to the end of this tunnel, i promise i will repay u big time. i will make this friendship worth it for u. i promise.
elisha | color says: (3:33:40 AM)
relax la
elisha | color says: (3:33:53 AM)
now isnt e time to talk abt repay wadsoever :)
elisha | color says: (3:34:05 AM)
most imptly, is that u will walk to the end of e tunnel
elisha | color says: (3:34:07 AM)
:)
aaron*c says: (3:35:36 AM)
u walk together with me ok? i have no other friends.
elisha | color says: (3:37:42 AM)
:)
elisha | color says: (3:37:43 AM)
suree
aaron*c says: (3:37:53 AM)
thank you.
aaron*c says: (3:38:00 AM)
u shd rest early too.
elisha | color says: (3:47:38 AM)
goodnights too